May 2009
This one is my favorite because I see it come into focus in this reality:

I stood before a brick building with a dull metal door. The odd thing about the door is that it had no doorknob, just a rounded tab where it would be. I said, “Why would someone make a door without a doorknob?”

A firm hand took hold of my right shoulder and I was spirited inside the building.

There, church was being held, some standing with hands palms-up. Before I had time to process more, the grip spun me around to face the door once again.

Metal scaffolding as high and wide as the door supported a huge bolt about the size of my arm where the knob should have been. A large nut held the bolt in place.

A male voice said, “They have locked everyone out. How are people supposed to get in? How am I supposed to get in?”

Startled awake, I went over it with my spouse. The only thing I could grasp at the time was how His Spirit was not welcome at those “family country club” type assemblies in our area. Now, I understand it as man’s wisdom locking out any one who does not fall in line with whatever doctrine that church practices [the traditions of men (Isaiah 29:13, Matthew 15:9, Mark 7:8, Colossians 2:22)]. No witnessing, no prophecy, no being in the Spirit, partial biblical truth, no gifts, no questions, etc. IOW, a spiritual dead tomb instead of a living part of the Ecclesia.

Remember 1 Peter 4:17:

For the time is come that judgment must begin at the house of God: and if it first begin at us, what shall the end be of them that obey not the gospel of God?

The lukewarm have not truly invited Him into their midst:

Revelation 3:14-22 And to the angel of the church of the Laodiceans write: “These things said the Amen, the faithful and true witness, the beginning of the creation of God;

“I know your works, that you are neither cold nor hot: I would you were cold or hot. So then because you are lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spew you out of My mouth.

“Because you say, ‘I am rich, and increased with goods, and have need of nothing.’ And know not that you are wretched, and miserable, and poor, and blind, and naked: I counsel you to buy of Me gold tried in the fire, that you may be rich; and white raiment, that you may be clothed, and that the shame of your nakedness do not appear; and anoint your eyes with eye salve, that you may see. As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten: be zealous therefore, and repent.

“Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear My voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with Me. To him that overcomes will I grant to sit with Me in my throne, even as I also overcame, and am set down with My Father in His throne. He that has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit said to the churches.”

Mid-June 2010
Close to 2 in the AM Tuesday, I had nodded off to sleep when Nathan Leal’s (online prophet) voice speaking in tongues penetrated my chest instead of my ears. Freaked out, I snapped awake and told my spouse about it. I had requested to join Nathan’s forum over a week prior and had emailed him the day before asking why it was taking so long to be approved. I got approved the next day when he released a prophecy about a heavily-populated city being destroyed.

July 2010
I saw this in a quick dream. I was on Godlike Production and this sentence came up: Those who strive to follow Me should not use My Name to garner attention. *blue angry face*

I pray this isn’t me, Jesus. Please forgive me if it is!

August 2010
It was a beautiful, warm, nearly cloudless day. With the sun high above casting no shadow, I trudged up a dirt peak on a hill or mountain. I peered over the cliff and saw a destroyed city as far as the eye could see. I awoke immediately and told the spouse. I had never had an apocalyptic dream before.

September 2010
I was at my computer, typing out something, when a male voice began to speak to me. The only thing I remember was the last sentence: “…you are part of the remnant.” I woke up and told my spouse.

December 2010
During a long fast, I had a disjointed, apocalyptic dream about the future: people working together, garden plots, caravans, animal bones patching up wagons, etc. At some point, I became the old woman with rotting teeth dispensing wisdom and making remedies from insects (I hate bugs and spiders). I somehow ended up back where I currently live and was giving a speech on my way to the bathroom in my bedroom. I can only recall the last line: “This is the end of the Bible for me.”

I have no idea what that statement means. Impending death (physical or spiritual)? That I will become a doer of the Word instead of a student?

On the thirty-first day of the same fast, I made a stupid mistake. I decide to try oil rinsing with extra virgin coconut oil, although I am allergic to coconuts. The vitamin D drops I use contained fractionated coconut oil and I had no problem with the product. Also, the oil had been recommended for cleansing teeth and gums due to the palmitic acid in it (palm oil as well). No reaction occurred until the next morning, when my mouth tissue felt a little off. Later that day, my tummy began to hurt and it would not let up. I broke the fast with some crackers to see if my stomach lining was starting to break down. The bland crackers actually highlighted the taste of blood in my mouth: my gums were bleeding!

In a dream, I saw myself in the bathroom mirror brushing with peroxide instead of as a mouthwash. I believe it was from the Holy Spirit, so I did just that. One night, I felt “liquid energy” flow into my head and through my gums—the familiar sensation of the Spirit going directly to work on me. The bleed, which had slowed, stopped completely right then. A few weeks of extra dental care and obedience led to getting rid of the allergy-induced gingivitis.