February 9, 2011
A catnap brought forth words to my mind: Some will be bold enough to go into the wilderness. They must seek Me and seek Me first.

February 10, 2011
Part of a dream I had involved me kneeling in the middle of my lit bedroom in prayer. Then, I was seated on the right side of a train carriage, watching the natural scenery roll by. After a bit, I was back in my bedroom, praying as I was before, hands raised, seemingly for a long time. It cut back to the train ride again, this time the train was going around a bend on a mountain so I could see the engine and then the prayer scene one last time.

The meaning is obvious: pray MOAR!

February 14, 2011
The words for this prayer came to me upon waking this morning.

An example of what a sinner’s prayer/dedication to Christ should contain:

Heavenly Father, the Great I AM and LORD of all existence, I come to you, a living sacrifice, for Your Will through me to be done.

Please, wash away my trespasses against Your Will and Nature as I forgive those who have trespassed against me.

I thank You for sacrificing Yourself through Your only begotten Son, Yeshua Hamashia, Christ Jesus, so that I may worship before Your Throne, cleansed and purified by the rebirth and refinement of my spirit.

All of my hopes, wishes, dreams, fears, worries, mind, body, will—my entire self I nail to the cross so I may be resurrected new in spirit, connected to Your Holy Spirit.

With the help of Your Holy Spirit, I will turn away from sin and set myself apart from this world.

For Your Kingdom is here among Your Children and may I be counted worthy among those who persist in obedience until You call me home. Amen.

April 2011
Why do you keep turning towards sin? So many rotten fish in this neighborhood… Shocked at the first sentence, I woke up and missed the rest of it. I have no idea what the second part meant. Ugh, I hate when that happens!

June 2011
“Proverb 16:9” flashed before my eyes. I wrote down the “proverb 16” part first, thinking it was one I had read before (Proverb 16:3), a brief bit of doubt. I turned to it and was pleasantly surprised:

Proverb 16:9 The mind of man plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps.

Whatever I do, for self, Him, and His Body, He will be the Guide, not me.

July 1, 2011
A plant entered my dream state, set in the ground and viewed from different sides. At the center of its long stem, it became bent at a 135° angle and then grew into a tight, vine-like curl ending with purple clover bloom, its flared head brushing the earth.

Next, men, women, children of various sizes and races mention God as their Lord and bowed in prayer. While bent, I saw their backs but not as they should have been. All were dull grey, narrow, vertebrae and ribs pronounced. One little boy had some damage to his spinal ridge but I knew he would be healed eventually.

The meaning rolled out to me upon waking: the plant represents true believers while on the earth. We came from dirt. We grow in the spirit and the physical. Our entire selves are bent and reshaped by Our Creator. By our submission to His will in every area, we blossom into a priest of His Kingdom (purple being a color of wealth and royalty). We will look peculiar to the rest of the world, be rejected because we do not stand up proudly as the world beckons us to do. Even from that position, we are nurtured by Him and thrive in spite of the problems that position places us in.

Job 14:2 – He comes forth like a flower, and is cut down: he flees also as a shadow, and continues not.

Psalm 37:2 – For they shall soon be cut down like the grass, and wither as the green herb.

James 1:11 – For the sun is no sooner risen with a burning heat, but it wither the grass, and the flower thereof falls, and the grace of the fashion of it perishes: so also shall the rich man fade away in his ways.

1 Peter 1:13-25 – Why gird up the loins of your mind, be sober, and hope to the end for the grace that is to be brought to you at the revelation of Jesus Christ; As obedient children, not fashioning yourselves according to the former lusts in your ignorance: But as he which has called you is holy, so be you holy in all manner of conversation; Because it is written, Be you holy; for I am holy.

And if you call on the Father, who without respect of persons judges according to every man’s work, pass the time of your sojourning here in fear: For as much as you know that you were not redeemed with corruptible things, as silver and gold, from your vain conversation received by tradition from your fathers; But with the precious blood of Christ, as of a lamb without blemish and without spot: Who truly was foreordained before the foundation of the world, but was manifest in these last times for you, Who by him do believe in God, that raised him up from the dead, and gave him glory; that your faith and hope might be in God.

Seeing you have purified your souls in obeying the truth through the Spirit to unfeigned love of the brothers, see that you love one another with a pure heart fervently: Being born again, not of corruptible seed, but of incorruptible, by the word of God, which lives and stays for ever.

For all flesh is as grass, and all the glory of man as the flower of grass. The grass wither, and the flower thereof falls away (Isaiah 40:6).

But the word of the Lord endures for ever. And this is the word which by the gospel is preached to you.

The thin backs of the people praying were their spirit man within, beginning to glow and strengthen through their confession (heart-felt agreement) of His majesty. It also means that if we want to be at His throne while in the flesh, we must bow, kneel, or prostrate ourselves before Him for He is Our King and deserves that honor. I got the impression He wanted to see His Light develop within us for no flesh shall have glory at His throne (1 Corinthians 1:29).

This was a great big hint to present myself before His throne (entering the Holy of Holies in spirit) more often instead of waiting until there is an emergency. I think He cut me a break because I do pray, talk about, and ponder Him all the day long. Glory goes all to Him if this inspired anyone to do that same.

July 18, 2011
You woke me at 4:21a, 4:30a, and 4:35a, so that was a great BIG hint I needed to get up and pray. I did for one hour, but my alarm, which was last set for 7a on Friday (today is Monday) buzzed at 6a. I need to build up my “worship endurance” to 90 minutes. Message received and thank you! 🙂

August 2011
According to a dream, I need to repent of lust and banish its demons from my body. Did I hear correctly that I have not submitted completely to my spouse in that area?

September 3, 2011
Was that pluck on a harp string at 8 in the morning to wake me up?

September 2011
A willful sin…guilt…an attempted repeat…

Within me, “Bee-dee-beeep! You have been temporarily disconnected…”

…shocked…thwarted…repentance…what am I to do?

Don’t do it again!

OK…later…amusing, Father, very amusing.

Early November 2011
Being ill and lazy, I forgot to pray last night…a big no-no. He awakened me by my younger son’s distress over a nightmare. As I came into consciousness, the Holy Spirit imprinted the statement, “You set him up for failure,” into me with the image of my older son’s struggling with his vocabulary assignment. I knew then he would not get it without us meticulously going over each and every word’s makeup and meaning, but I was tired of dealing with him. The constant attention he needs to push through his lessons is aggravating, but I realize this is part of my spiritual refinement.

I am sorry, Lord. Forgive me.

November 16, 2011
Who is Christy? Why does that name keep popping up in my head? Is that someone I am to witness to? To pray for? (Pray for her.)

November 18, 2011
I saw a short, young white woman with a full face and baby blue eyes in my mind near-waking. Who was she? Is that Christy? (Yes, pray for her.)

December 2011
A young black man with glasses and a strange tenor voice came out of my neighbor’s door (the one on the right) and said, “Quit rationalizing what to say.” I have been having problems finding the words for prayer and praise. I do not want unfeeling yet proper words to come from my mouth. That is no excuse since I have no issue talking about Him with others. True to form I did a little research on the word, rationalize. He knows me so well…LOL!

ra·tion·al·ize

verb (used with object)
1. to ascribe (one’s acts, opinions, etc.) to causes that superficially seem reasonable and valid but that actually are unrelated to the true, possibly unconscious and often less creditable or agreeable causes.
2. to remove unreasonable elements from.
3. to make rational or conformable to reason.
4. to treat or explain in a rational or rationalistic manner.

In psychology and logic, rationalization (or making excuses) is an unconscious defense mechanism in which perceived controversial behaviors or feelings are logically justified and explained in a rational or logical manner in order to avoid any true explanation and made consciously tolerable by plausible means. Rationalization encourages irrational or unacceptable behavior, motives, or feelings and often involves ad hoc hypothesizing. This process ranges from fully conscious (e.g. to present an external defense against ridicule from others) to mostly subconscious (e.g. to create a block against internal feelings of guilt).

People rationalize for various reasons. Rationalization may differentiate the original deterministic explanation of the behavior or feeling in question. Sometimes rationalization occurs when we think we know ourselves better than we do. It is also an informal fallacy of reasoning.

Or, simply put, do not analyze; just say aloud the words coming to mind.